The essential theme of this
article is ‘knowing Jesus’ – not just knowing in the sense that we’ve heard
about Him, read about Him, and know a bit about Him. This knowing
that I want to speak about is the knowing in total intimacy. To emphasise
this I want to draw upon the experiences of two Mary’s – utterly different
in their backgrounds and yet united in one thing.
The first Mary is the Mary
of Bethany, the sister of Lazarus. This Mary was the woman who came
with the alabaster box of perfume, with which she had anointed Jesus’ head
as He sat in the house of Simon the leper, (Matthew 26:7). I’m not
wanting to look at the miracle of Lazarus right now – however interesting
that may be in terms of Messianic healing – nor to sister Martha, the anxious
one, but just to Mary, the quiet one. The story unfolds in John 11,
and I want to look at a few verses in that chapter to help our understanding.
In verse 20 Martha is rushing
about, doing things, always busy, but Mary is sitting in the house, composed
and quiet, following the death of her brother. Then, in verses 28
and 29 Martha comes to Mary with a message – ‘The Master has come and is
asking for you.’ We have nothing to confirm that He was, but the
important thing is that as soon as she received the call she got up and
went to Him. And in verse 32, when she found Him she fell at His
feet, and poured out Her heart before Him.
The other Mary is the one
from Magdala, whom Jesus had delivered from demonic oppression, and we
find her here, in John 20, also pouring her heart out in grief and loss.
You probably know the story – but what is the common factor between these
two? It was that they both knew Him – that was the bond.
I share about these two because,
for us, there is a danger in having a knowledge based on doctrine, doctrine
that may be a sound as a rock, but which has never, ever, brought us to
the place of a personal, intimate, relationship with the risen Lord.
To both of these women doctrine was no more than a word, it meant no more
to them than the ground they stood on. Any Pharisee could have torn
these women apart on any issue of doctrine, but one thing they could never
do was rob them of the blessings of knowing Jesus. As soon as they
heard His voice they knew something, deep inside, that they had both a
past and a future with Him. How is it with you?
This intimacy with Him is
far more than just believing. Coming back to Bethany, and to Martha.
She believed that Jesus had at His disposal all the power necessary to
not only have healed her brother but now, after his death, to resurrect
him. She knew that Jesus had some sort of indefinable relationship
with God, and she had a belief system that said that everything would work
out all right in the end. For Martha there needed to be a gentle
leading until the belief was more than just intellectual understanding,
but had moved on to become personal, until the dawning came – and she was
able to say, ‘Yes, Lord, now I know that you are the Son of God.’
She had come to that place where no longer was she motivated by a sense
of ‘duty,’ (‘duty,’ along with ‘unity,’ are words that have the ability
to suffocate in the Church today), but she had realised that she could
now bring to Him things that were of real value.
And Mary of Bethany knew
one thing she must do, too, and when Jesus called she did it, she got up
and went. In this there is an important principle in God’s dealings
with us – that before any one of us can seek Him, He must first seek us.
You see, man is sin-full by nature, he is born into sin – it’s part of
the Adam nature that is in each and every one of us, a nature that would
not of itself look to God and so, before any one of us can think a right
thought about Him, God must first do a work of enlightenment within us.
Jesus speaking – ‘I do not speak of you all; I know whom I have chosen.
John 15:16-19 And again –
have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you and ordained you that you should
go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain; that whatever
you shall ask of the Father in My name, He may give it to you. These things
I command you, that you love one another. If the world hates you, you know
that it hated Me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the
world would love its own. But because you are not of the world, but I have
chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.’
If we have been chosen that
makes us special, choice and called. We are not called into a place
of idleness but to bring to God that of ourselves which will be of value
to Him. Now, the fact that we have been chosen may not come
to us as a totally new revelation, although it may not bring a perfect
understanding either, but the fact is that God has put His mark upon us
which will cause us to begin our search, and will create within us a desire
that will grow until it becomes a hunger. And when that search begins
we shall find there is an answer to our quest, because it is promised,
through the scriptures. It’s in the word of God, the logos, all in
hard print that we may read, consume and digest. It’s all there,
in prophecy, in poetry, in history, in allegory, mostly in plain English.
Every thing that was, that is, and that will be, is there in the Bible.
Don’t discard it.
And the word is powerful
– Hebrews 4:12…
‘For the word of God is
living and powerful and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even
to the dividing apart of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow,
and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.’
But then something else
happened for, in John 1:14 we learn that the Word became flesh…
‘And the Word became flesh,
and dwelt among us. And we beheld His glory, the glory as of the only begotten
of the Father, full of grace and of truth.’
Look also at 1 John 1:1-2…
‘That which was from the
beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which
we have looked upon, and our hands have handled, concerning the Word of
life, (for the Life was revealed, and we have seen it and bear witness,
and show to you the everlasting Life, who was with the Father and was revealed
…and then in Revelation 19:13.
‘And He had been clothed
in a garment dipped in blood, and His name is called The Word of God.’
The ‘Word’ is personalised
here. Not only is the Messiah the embodiment of the Word but
He is the Word. ‘The word of the Lord’ was a common expression in
the Old Testament, it appears many times in Ezekiel’s book for instance,
always identifying some revelation of Jehovah. To show its true meaning,
and its application to the Messiah, was of great importance to John, for
it was in his later years that certain errors as to the person of Jesus,
borrowed from Eastern philosophy, had begun to creep into the Christian
church. In these verses he is describing ‘The Word’ as a personal
and divine Being, self-existent, and coexistent from eternity with the
Father. Yet He was distinguished from God as being the Son, the creator
of all created things, the source of all life and a light to all men and
who, in the fullness of time, was incarnate among them. Putting it simply,
then, what we can see is that, as the Word is the Messiah, it is the Word
that reveals Him to us. That’s where we shall find Him, if we search
for Him, and as He has called us, so we too shall hear His voice and respond
to it, as Jesus said, in John 10:27...
‘My sheep hear My voice,
and I know them, and they follow Me.’
Take Luke 24:27 and the two
disciples on the road to Emmaus, for instance…
‘And beginning at Moses
and all the prophets, He expounded to them in all the Scriptures the things
…and then, in verse
‘And they said to one
another, Did not our heart burn within us while He talked with us by the
way and while He opened the Scriptures to us?
Now, I’m well aware that
I am not in the same league as Jesus when it comes to Biblical exposition,
but in so far as I have been able to explain things would you say, on the
basis of what you have read, that your hearts are burning within you?
Do you get a bit excited, a bit incandescent, when you read or hear the
word of God? We all should, for it contains life, and that’s where
you will find Him.
THE LORDSHIP OF JESUS.
In Matthew 11:28-30 Jesus
speaks some remarkable words…
‘Come to Me all you who
labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke on you
and learn of Me, for I am meek and lowly in heart, and you shall find rest
to your souls. For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light.’
For Mary of Bethany the word
was ‘come,’ a specific word to her. In these verses the first
word here is also ‘come,’ but here it’s spoken in a more general sense,
it is a word that echo’s throughout all the ages, reaches into all eternity,
but it’s a word that only the listener will hear. It needs an answer,
and our answer will condition our response, because it will cause us to
ask a question of ourselves. It’s a simple question, and we may not
be very conscious of it, but it goes something like this: ‘Do I really
want to get to where He is asking me to go.’ Well, if you do there
is absolutely nothing stopping you. But to get there requires the
use of your will, and if we will to come to Him our whole life is
then brought into line and we begin to live as we actually desire.
Perhaps, when that happens,
we can join with Paul, as he says, in Galatians 2:20…
‘ I have been crucified
with Christ, and I live; yet no longer I, but Christ lives in me. And that
life I now live in the flesh, I live by faith toward the Son of God, who
loved me and gave Himself on my behalf.’.
If we take these words for
ourselves it means we willingly do away with our independence, surrendering
all we are to the supremacy of the Lord Jesus. No one else can do
this for us, no pastor, no counsellor, no teacher, we alone do it, I do
it, you do it, on our own. This is personal. Jesus says, ‘Come.’
It’s an invitation. He doesn’t say, ‘Do this,’ or ‘Don’t do that,’
The disciples discovered
something of this as they responded, to the extent we see recorded in John
‘No longer do I call you
servants, for the servant does not know what his master does. But I have
called you friends, for all things that I have heard from My Father I have
made known to you.’
Do you want to be counted
a friend of Jesus? Do you want to hear from the lips of Jesus the
words that will revolutionise your life? We can all be in that place
so long as we take note of the proviso that precedes this verse.
The surrender we are speaking of here is more than just giving up the pleasures
that go with the ‘Adam’ nature, the things that would divert our attention
from the way of righteousness, it’s more because it means the surrender
of the will. This is where there is so often a crisis in our lives,
and it can be a major one. For God never forces, never crushes a
person’s will, He never pleads, He just waits, but all the time the word
As we move into that place
of surrender so, more and more we come under the Lordship of Jesus.
The disciples had already discovered something else about their Friend,
for earlier, in John 13:13, He had said, ‘You call Me Master and Lord,
and you say well; for so I am.’ There is a difference between having
a master and being mastered. Jesus never uses His position to enforce
our obedience, He doesn’t take steps to make us do as He wants. The
simple fact is that He is the Master, and being the Master means that He
is the one who knows everything about us, one who sits closer than a friend,
and sees deep into our hearts, and satisfies our deepest longings.
And this is what coming under
His Lordship means. There are many who would not choose to use terms
such as Master and Lord, preferring something a little bit more comfortable,
like Saviour, or perhaps Redeemer. We feel safer with terms like
that, maybe, rather than the thought of yielding everything. But
if we are serious, even passionate in our desire for reality in life, which
is inseparable from the things of God, we have no alternative but to sign
away our rights, and become a bond-slave of Jesus the Messiah. Until
we do that we can never be saints. Now, a bond-slave is not like
an ordinary slave. A bond slave is one who has been given his or
her freedom but has chosen to remain with their master. Jesus said,
‘Unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains
alone; but if it dies it produces much fruit.’ (John 12:24).
Before we can start speaking
of repentance, leave alone being repentant, there are a couple of con’s
that need to be introduced here. The first con is ‘conviction,’ the
second is ‘confession.’ Lets start with conviction, by that I mean
the ‘conviction of sin’ through the activity of the Holy Spirit, as in
‘And when that One comes,
He will convict the world concerning sin, and concerning righteousness,
and concerning judgment.’
We have earlier spoken about
‘calling.’ I want to say this clearly for if there has been a calling
upon our lives there must inevitably have been conviction. We can,
if we want, ignore the conviction and concentrate on the calling, but in
so doing we move on in our own strength and at some peril to ourselves.
There may be some fruit from our ministering, because God is gracious,
but it won’t be the abundant fruit that can be possible when we are fully
sold out to God.
Conviction is a very rare
experience if the outside world is anything to go by. We do have
consciences, of course, and there are many who get a bit stirred up in
that area because of past events and a sense of guilt, but our conscience
is not a very reliable barometer of our spiritual health.
But true conviction of sin
is not just a bit of remorse, or just feeling sorry – it’s not, because
when conviction comes it overwhelms all our relationships, all our experiences,
and all our failures, leaving us with nothing other than the knowledge,
the intense awareness, of the holiness of God and, with it, the sense of
our own utter unworthiness. It’s no use saying things like, ‘Well,
I’ve not been all that bad,’ or ‘It’s all down to the way I was brought
up.’ Oswald Chambers had something very prudent to say about that:
‘The old Puritan idea that
the devil tempts men had this remarkable effect, it produced the man of
iron who fought; the modern idea of blaming his heredity or his circumstances
produces the man who succumbs at once.’
He wrote that about ninety
years ago so the principle of blame shifting existed then. It’s obviously
not a modern phenomenon, although it’s common enough these days.
But perhaps that’s not too surprising since it was Adam who introduced
it. Isaiah said,
‘Woe is me, for I am a
man of unclean lips.’ (Isaiah 6:5). David said, ‘Against
You, You only, have I sinned, and done evil in Your sight.’ (Psalm
51:4) For these two men, and any one else who comes into the presence
of God, there is no vague or woolly sense of being a sinner. You
know you’re a sinner! - for at that moment there comes a realisation of
the concentration of sin within our lives. And we can’t get away
with a flippant, ‘Oh yes, I know I’m a sinner,’ when we get into the presence
of God. For then it will be a very clear acknowledgement of, ‘Lord,
I am all that You say I am, and I deserve the penalty of your judgement.’
It’s then, when God begins by convicting us of sin in some particular area
of our lives, and we yield to that conviction as it comes to mind, that
something begins to happen. He will then lead us beyond the conviction
into the revelation of the depth of the sin, and of His verdict of it.
And so, as the result of
that, and having been convicted we come to confession. Confession
comes when we understand God’s verdict on our sin, and we agree with it.
I want here to say that the experience of the revelation of their sin has
affected the greatest of saints, as well as the least, like you and me.
If you imagine the Wesley’s and the Spurgeon’s, the Havergal’s and the
Chamber’s didn’t know it, or that David, Isaiah, Peter and Paul didn’t
know it, you would be wrong. Perhaps we do understand that, at the
same time wondering why there sometimes seems to be a blockage, an obstacle
to our maturing as believers, but if we humbly seek a way to overcome it,
it’s then that the conviction will come. Maybe we need to forgive
someone, perhaps we need to forgive ourselves, perhaps it’s a sin within
our lives that we battle with that’s become habitual, whatever it is the
first step is to put it right. That’s pretty obvious, but equally, or perhaps
even more so, it is to accept more fully our true identity, in other words,
to understand exactly who we are, in Jesus.
But there will be times when
we are unable to understand what it is that is the obstacle, leave alone
how to remove it. It is then we need the ministry of others in order
to walk in the maturity we were created for. God’s love is often
blocked off from us and is unable to flow because of the depth of pain
within us, the brokenness of rejection, or of abuse. The purpose
of articles such as this one is to bring help through discernment and healing
prayer. We’ll look at this issue a little later on.
However, with the conviction
will come the overwhelming desire to be right with God. I must say that
a Church full of people doesn’t cause Satan many moment’s of apprehension,
but one man or one woman seeking to get right with God terrifies him.
It’s when conviction comes to us that there comes with it an awful self-realisation
as we at last see ourselves as God sees us. And what we see fills
us with shock and horror as we recognise not only the depth of the sin
in our lives but also the awful dark pride in our hearts that has excluded
the Light of the World for so long.
Confession, therefore, is
an admission of guilt. Yes, I know I’m guilty - but what do I do
with the guilt? Do I wear it like a medal of self-righteousness,
telling everyone how guilty I am and this is how I offended God, and never
going beyond the penitential stage? That’s not the way to freedom.
Do I stuff it in a rucksack and drag it around on my back in an attitude
of self-pity? That’s not the way to freedom, either. Or do
we say that God demonstrated His verdict upon my sin through the cross
of Jesus the Messiah? That through the cross a way was made possible
for me to experience total and absolute freedom from guilt and shame, because
the price paid for my sin was total and absolute? See what Paul says,
in Ephesians 1:4…
‘…according as He chose us
in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without
blame before Him in love.’
How on earth can that be? Not when you consider what we have done
or where we’ve been, and certainly not through anything that we can do,
that’s for sure, for we can do nothing. We are like the prisoner
on death row, all rights removed, awaiting only the carrying out of the
sentence. But Paul also said, in Romans 7:24-25 to 8:1…
‘O wretched man that I am!
Who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God – through Jesus
Christ our Lord! So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of
God, but with the flesh the law of sin. There is therefore now no
condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according
to the flesh, but according to the Spirit.’
Here’s the choice for us,
is it the flesh or the Spirit. Which way?
Two aspects of repentance
are revealed in 2 Corinthians 7:10, both described as sorrow…
‘For the grief according
to God works repentance to salvation, not to be regretted, but the grief
of the world works out death.’
We said earlier that
being sorry for all that we have been and done that offends God is not
enough. Sorrow, as it appears in this verse, goes well beyond that.
Probably one word that covers it, two actually, is deep remorse but, if
we mean business with God, it must go even further than that. Sorrow
is really only subjective, an expression of the emotions, whereas the route
to be taken, having got thus far, needs to be objective. By that
I mean that we must now bring the will into the equation. Godly sorrow,
therefore, requires the deepest remorse, but then goes beyond that yet
again to demand the objective exercise of our will to determine not to
go down the sin road again. It doesn’t mean that we won’t, but at
least we now know the way back now. Worldly sorrow simply says ‘I’m
sorry’ in words that do not come from the heart and so do not have any
roots, accepting that it could easily happen all over again - after all,
I’m only human.
Look at what Paul says, in
‘But may it never be for
me to boast, except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, by whom the
world is crucified to me, and I to the world.’
What an amazing statement!
But this is the crux, isn’t it? You see, it is the Gospel of Jesus
that bears the good news of salvation, and it’s that which forces us into
decision making. And these are the questions that we have to face:
Am I prepared to accept God’s verdict on my sin, or do I try to justify
myself? Do I have any interest at all in the death of Jesus?
What’s it to me? Or do I so want to be identified with His death
that I am willing to choose the death of self so that I may be identified
with His resurrection life? Good questions, aren’t they? Again,
The greatest privilege for
us, who long to be effective disciples for Him, is that we may simply sign
on the dotted line in order to enter into covenant with Him. Immediately
we do that an exchange takes place through the cross, the direct result
of the other exchange that took place on the cross, when another person
paid the price for our sin. A supernatural identity change takes
place at that time because, through our confession, God no longer sees
us as we were but as we now are in Jesus. And if we are in Jesus
that’s a special place to be, because Jesus said He is in the Father so,
by applying a bit of logic, we are in the Father, too. How about
There are several facets
to the meaning of forgiveness. Forgiveness of others, and forgiveness
of ourselves are two, which we shall deal with more fully in a moment.
First of all I want to look at this aspect as it may be employing our thoughts
right now, and that is our forgiveness by God. Look with me at Ephesians1:7…
‘In Him we have redemption
through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of
The general meaning of the
word redemption here is this: We have been bought back fully from
the market place of sin. We now have a new owner, we are no longer
slaves to the world’s systems and to sin, but now we are willing bond-slaves
of Jesus. Not only that but, at the moment of purchase the stain
of past sin was wiped clean. But look at the price that was paid
to make this possible. This was no normal market-place transaction,
no money changed hands, because the deal that took place was beyond price.
It involved the death the Son of God, as the propitiation for our sin.
It’s because of this we need
to tread very carefully indeed. You see, it is far too easy, and
very prevalent within the Church, to preach an agreeable, easily acceptable,
view of God the Father, that He loves you because He is kind and therefore
of course He will forgive you. You don’t have to do anything, some
say – just relax and let it happen. There is a grave danger in this
view because, although He does love us all unconditionally, He forgives
us only on the basis of the sacrificial offering of His Son upon the cross.
We cannot afford to take that fact lightly. This wasn’t some bright
and breezy, spur of the moment decision either. This once, and once
only, act of redemption, which was for all mankind, was meticulously planned
from the beginning of time, for us. And there was no other way.
You see, there is a Biblical basis for the atonement, where atonement is
a word that has within its meaning other words, such as redemption, reconciliation,
justification, etc., and the only basis for that atonement is the shedding
of blood. God Himself said, in Leviticus 17:11…
‘For the life of the flesh
is in the blood, and I have given it to you upon the altar to make atonement
for your souls; for it is the blood that makes atonement for the soul.’
And also in Leviticus 16:30…
‘For on that day the priest
shall make atonement for you, to cleanse you, that you may be clean from
all your sins before the Lord.’
Not only had God determined
the price of our redemption but, something like 3700 years ago He established
His own law, and He always keeps it. Our atonement therefore could
only be achieved through blood, not of an animal ritually slaughtered every
year, but through the blood of the God/Man, Jesus of Nazareth, our great
high priest, once and for all. Look at Hebrews 10:14…
‘For by one offering
He has perfected forever those who are being sanctified.’
We cannot, and must not,
take our forgiveness for granted. You see, the only way we can be
reconciled with God is through the atonement, through that supernatural
exchange that took place at Calvary. God’s forgiveness of our sins
is one of the greatest acts of divine grace, because it was only through
the price of His own Son’s life upon the cross that there was any way in
which He could forgive us, and yet still remain faithful to His word and
to His holiness.
It is, therefore, only through
the conviction of the Holy Spirit, followed by the heartfelt confession
of our sins, the resultant reconciliation to God through the redemptive
price of the cross, that our forgiveness comes, and through our forgiveness
we are then set apart by God for His service. Sounds simple, but
is it? (That’s a rhetorical question).
But let’s see. Take
a look at Matthew 6:14-15…
‘For if you forgive men
their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But
if you do not forgive men , neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.’
That seems fairly straightforward,
doesn’t it – that our forgiveness is conditioned upon our willingness to
forgive those who have hurt us. But we don’t often want to know that,
do we? You may be thinking that it is impossible to forgive what
so and so did – the pain of abuse, verbal, physical, sexual, or rejection
through parental separation, or you own divorce, what about abandonment
and being given up for adoption, the child of illicit love, a one-night
stand, or even rape. The hurt and pain of these things may
be so, so deep, that you may, first of all, think that no one else can
understand – I want you to know that they can, that you are not alone,
and that many have worked through similar pain. You may also think
it was so awful that you cannot possibly forgive, and nor do you want to.
Equally you may be so burdened
down with guilt attached to things of your own past so that you don’t feel
able to forgive yourself. You’ve possibly made an inner vow that
you cannot, or will not forgive yourself and you are bound into it.
If any of you are in that place and want to go on with God the answer is
having a willingness to face the pain and, with the help of someone alongside,
to walk through it to the light on the other side. And when you have
and are willing, by an act of will, to forgive the offenders, you too will
know the freedom that the atoning gift of Calvary won for you. It’s
worth it. Are you willing?
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